I know, I know, I was supposed to write about channeling. Well, today I'm in coping mode, and I wanted to describe to you how it is to function as an empath in a busy, busy world.
Generally, I'm able to do my job without too much direction or oversight, and have passing interaction with most of my fellow workers. My job also involves a lot of contact with a lot of people, and just dealing with all their emotions is difficult enough. Still, most days I do fine and manage to keep my sense of self intact without getting too inundated by other people's stuff.
Today, however, was one of those days when a coworker who is new was asking a lot of questions, which I'm happy to answer, but I felt like parts of me were being sucked away because I didn't have much downtime. Then, I had to attend a meeting near the end of my day, and it was all I could do not to feel completely overwhelmed and shut down. As it is, I feel that most of the time I come off as standoff-ish or shy to my co-workers. If only they could understand that I'm just trying to stay within myself enough to avoid becoming overburdened by other's emotions and thoughts. It's tough, especially on days like today when I don't have enough opportunities to decompress.
After doing my time at the gym (another place where there a lot of people), I came home and sat in my meditation place for a while. It helped to reconnect with Mother Earth and with my Self. That's how I cope. And I'm hoping that tomorrow will be an easier day.
And, yes, I promise that next time I'll write about channeling.